Good Week.

I weighed myself yesterday morning and I'm 180.5lbs! It means all my hard work has been paying off. I know I'm behind but if I can lose at least 15lbs more before Christmas, I will be in good shape. Even if I'm 140lbs before I go to law school... as long as I'm lean, I'll be happy. I think that's the main thing I need to think about - it's not necessarily about the number on the scale, but about how many inches I lose and how lean I am. Because if I'm a bit heavier but it's all muscle - then who cares, right?

This week, my gym routine consisted of:

Monday - Physique
Tuesday - BodyART
Wednesday - break
Thursday - Body Sculpt

I was going to go to Ballet today but I'm really not feeling well. My stomach really hurts and I haven't eaten anything because of it. Tomorrow I'll try to at least work out at home before I go into work. Sunday I'll either work out at home or go to the gym. Next week instead of body sculpt I'm trying design method too, which I'm really excited about. Kelly and Kirsten have been coming to the gym with me which is nice. I think next week on Tuesday, Kelly and I are going to do anti-gravity yoga for an hour then do the BodyART class. So even though it's yoga, at least I'll be doing 2 hours on Tuesday.

Last week when I was in NY, I bought a bunch of clothes that are too small. My goal is to lose 10lbs and fit into these. I think one of them will still be tight when I've lost 10lbs, but that's just incentive to lose more. I also bought a dress I want to wear on Christmas.

Adorable, right? The picture doesn't do it justice because it's the most adorable dress ever and so my style. It fits but I don't like how it looks on me right now because there's a little too much belly action going on. If I can lose 15lbs, I definitely think I can rock this dress. So that's why I'm working really hard, because I don't want to waste this dress. Isn't it so little girl-ish/old lady-ish at the same time? It's so adorable, haha. I'm so determined to wear it.

I've been eating well for the most part. Not as many veggies as I should be eating but I'll try to change that. And usually when I work at the bar, I have the dessert they serve (crepes with vanilla ice cream and strawberries) because you need a little pick me up. Thankfully they're small, and I usually don't eat the dinner there because it's too bad for me... so it evens out, maybe? I usually bring some fruit to snack on but I don't always have time to snack, especially at weddings that keep the bar open during dinner. But we'll see, and I'll try my hardest to be good this weekend.

I think that's it for now. And thanks so much to everyone who reads this and bugs me to write. So many people I wouldn't expect to read this do and it really does motivate me to keep going because I don't want to disappoint anyone, and most of all, I don't want to disappoint myself.

-Monica

I'm Back!

Since SOMEONE bothers me every day to update this, I figured I finally would.

I know it's been a while. Stuff came up that really altered the way I was living for a little so the whole diet/weight loss was put on hold. But I think, and I hope, things will be okay for a while so I can get back on track.

I joined The Athletic Club. I love some of the classes, and it was cheaper to just join. I haven't been going much lately, but I'm trying to change that. So I have a plan for this week.

Today - went to BodyART
Wednesday - usually my day off, but going to Physique
Thursday - usually I would go to Body Sculpt or Design Method but I believe I am going to the US for the day so this week it will be a rest day
Friday - Ballet Strength & Stretch
Saturday - I have to work at 4 but if I get up early enough I'll go to the gym and just run for an hour and do some weights or whatever.
Sunday - weights & cardio
Monday - Physique
Tuesday - BodyART

This is all assuming I don't have a job that interferes with the classes - hopefully I can still go to my classes when I get a job.

I feel pretty good about myself after tonight. Just feeling like I can do this. I was thinking today about how much I want to get to my goal by next year, and I realized I really need to ramp it up. My goal for the end of the year is 165, I believe. That's a little more than 1lb a week, which is doable. If I get my gym schedule on track, hopefully my eating will follow. Although I feel good about myself today, I didn't eat particularly well. I had a healthy breakfast and lunch, but for dinner we had plum pierogi. But we only make them once a year when italian plums are in season, so I figured it was okay. Plus I'm not a huge fan of them so I only had like.. 8 or something. Tomorrow I'll wake up and eat healthy, go to the gym, and have leftover homemade veggie soup for dinner.

I think I can do this. I think my mind is back in a place where I'm able to really focus. I feel like with this and law school applications, it'll take up a lot of my time but I suppose it's worth it in the end. I'm just ready to be healthy. And if I can get to 165 or less by the end of the year, I'd be convinced I can do this. As for a short term goal, I'm going to say 174lbs by the end of October, hopefully. I think I'd be in a good position if I got to that. I'm not quite sure what I weigh right now because I've been scared to check but I know its around the 184lb mark, so it's not like I'm completely off track. I'm obviously losing slower than I want to, but we all come across bumps in the road.

So I'm ready to get back on track and am gunna need everyone to bug me to update this and talk to me about this so that I stay motivated. Motivation is a huge problem sometimes, but I really want to stick with this. I think I can with everyone's help.

-Monica

PS. I have an awesome boyfriend and I love him and stuff and he makes me update my blog so he's pretty cool.