Quick Update

Just a quick update - I've been busy and haven't had much time to write.

I just finished day 9 of the shred. I ate horribly yesterday because it was my brother's birthday party so today I did the shred and went for a run. I feel like the next few weeks I won't lose much because my birthday is this week and  I just have so many events that will put me back. I've decided though, that at the villages I will only eat badly on my birthday and the rest of the days I'll stay healthy.

I'm kind of worried that I'm losing my motivation. I've just been so bad lately. And this month, my PMS has been awful. I normally don't get really bad cravings but I did this month. I ate like 10 cookies the one night and yesterday I had 2 donuts on top of everything else. But I think my cravings have been satisfied so I'll eat well today.

I think I'm not going to weigh myself for a while. I feel like the pressure I've put on myself to lose a certain amount of weight every month is really getting to me and stressing me out. So, I'm going to stick to measuring myself every 15 days, and I'll just weigh myself once every 2 weeks or something. I know it'll be harder to track my progress but.. oh well. This month I doubt I'll lose much, so I'm changing my goal to be 175ish by the end of August. August I'll lose a lot because I have nothing really planned so no reason to eat bad. It's just this month that's crazy with birthdays and buck and does and weddings. I hate it and I'm trying but it's hard.

Anyway, I'm going to try hard this week to at least maintain. Tomorrow will be my last day of level 1 of the shred then I move to level 2. I didn't work out yesterday because I had no time. This week I'm hoping to work out from Sunday (today, which I did) and every day until Saturday. Saturday I'll break this week because I'll likely be hungover (although I'm going to try my best to not be and to not drink so much). So.. we'll see. I know Wednesday I usually break but I'm going to try to work out this Wednesday just because I did break yesterday.

Anyway, that's it for now. I'm just trying to get motivated again, despite all my setbacks.

-Monica