I'm already on day 9. The first 17 days are just flying by. I had a bit of an off day yesterday so I have no calorie count for it. My babci came home from Australia after 6 months and I went to pick her up at the airport and we went out to dinner. We ordered spinach dip to snack on, so I had some of that, but just a little. And because I snacked on that, I ended up just ordering a dinner salad as my main course with chicken and a lighter dressing. It probably still wasn't the best for me, but I did my best. I ate well the rest of the day too, minus some candy and chocolate that I ate, which I feel really guilty about! But I'm kind of glad I ate it because as I was eating the chocolate, I realized it really wasn't that great. So I can't see myself binging on chocolate or candy anytime soon. I'd much prefer snacking on something healthier now, I guess (unless we're talking nachos or ice cream).
So far today I've had 1044 calories. I'll probably have a small snack in an hour or so. This week is kind of crazy because I'm so busy so I don't know how much working out I'll get in, but I'll try. And then this Saturday is going to be a cheat day because I'm going to see wrestling with my brother and sister and there will be quite a bit of drinking. I'm going to try to keep my calorie intake below 2000 though and then get right back on track on Sunday. Hopefully it won't screw everything up.
I think I have a little more faith in doing this the past 2 days. I think it has something to do with my mom telling me she was proud of me when I ordered a salad. It's nice to hear that from someone who's opinion I value a lot. Knowing she thinks I can do this helps. I was also looking at myself in the mirror today and sucking in my gut (what girl doesn't do this? haha) and I realized how much I could like how I look. I've never wanted to be stick thin and I'll be okay being lean and healthy even if it means not being a size 0. I just want to get to a weight where I look in the mirror and don't worry that I'm going to get a double chin or something stupid like that. I want to get to a point where I think I'm pretty. I want to get to a point where I feel confident enough to allow myself to stand out. I think when my face thins out (or if - I tend to always have ridiculous chubby cheeks no matter what my size) and when I see my upper body becoming leaner, I'll start to have a lot more confidence in myself. And I can't wait! I'll be so much happier even at the point where I've only lose 30-40lbs. But for now.. I just have to keep working, knowing that I'll get to that point eventually.
-Monica
P.S. Nick is awesome and I love him. (Happy?)
Ps. Amanda is also awesome.
ReplyDeleteWith the drinking: do some research ahead of time about different alcohols. As far as I understand, different types of alcohol have different effects on your metabolism. (So it's not just the calories that you have to worry about.) I know that all alcohol slows your metabolism, but how much and for how long depends (I think) on the specific kind of alcohol.
ReplyDeleteIt shouldn't be too big of a deal (as long as you're not binge drinking every weekend), but just be aware that what you eat over the next couple days will get processed slower and it might affect the number you see on the scale this week. It probably (almost certainly) won't do anything to your diet in the long run, but don't be too discouraged if you don't see a big loss this week.
It sounds like you're doing great so far! I'm really excited for you (even though I've only seen you around HEX a few times). xD
with the drinking.. it'll likely just be beer. It's a wrestling event so I can't see them having a lot of choice, haha. And beforehand we'll probably drink rum or vodka. I'm really going to try to limit my consumption of alcohol though, because I don't wanna screw this up even for a week or two. But if not - it's just one weekend, and I likely won't drink again until my birthday.
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