Frustrated.

I'm frustrated, and I had an awful day. And it began by weighing myself.

I weighed myself this morning and I have not lost anymore weight. I don't understand why. It's been almost 2 weeks. It's not like I'm expecting to have lost 10lbs by now, but another pound or even a half pound would have been nice. I've been eating so healthy and I should be seeing results, no matter how small, and I'm not. It's so incredibly frustrating. Every other time I've decided to lose weight, I've had absolutely no problem losing the first 20lbs. I've never gotten stuck like this so fast, and it's extremely discouraging. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I haven't been working out as much lately, but weight loss is 90% diet, and I should be losing based solely on my diet. I just don't get it and when things like this happen it makes me want to give up. I feel healthier and yes, that was the goal, but I fully expect to see weight loss along with it. I've lost more weight while not following a diet like this so I just don't understand. I've been so proud of myself for sticking with it these past 2 weeks and I was really excited to weigh myself and... nothing. I don't know if I'm retaining water or what, but it sucks. And it was a horrible start to my day and it's taking everything I can to not just give up and go eat a hot dog or taco bell or something. I don't know.. Advice? Should I be trying to work out more? Should I maybe switch the types of veggies I'm eating, because I tend to stick to a select few of my favourites? Any advice would help.

Overall it's been a bad day. I know it's Friday the 13th, but I would have had this day regardless of the date. I couldn't find my keys this morning after tearing my room apart, so I was late leaving. I rode my bike to work, and wow, it's a longer bike ride than I expected. And so hilly! The chain fell off of my bike on the way there so I had to fix it and I ended up being a little late to work. Then while at work, a guy from the registrar's office came to visit me because he was told I worked there. Apparently there's a problem with my paperwork to graduate and it's possible I won't be able to this year. It's a long story but basically, at the beginning of the year I was given approval to not take the required courses for my criminology specialization because they weren't being offered, and since it wasn't my fault my advisor said he'd get approval to substitute other courses in for them. I was assured that there would be NO problem when it came time to graduate. Well here we are, and the advisor doesn't remember the exact situation, so I had to explain it to the registrar guy and he told me he'd try his best to figure it out. He says they try to accommodate students with high grades like mine and they'll do their best, but that sometimes it doesn't work out. It makes me so mad because this isn't my fault. In September, I had options where I could have dropped the specialization and just done a double major. But because I was assured there'd be no problem, I continued with my program thinking all would be well. And now..... ugh. It's such a headache that I can't even deal with right now. And I keep thinking the worst and that I won't be able to graduate and how unfair that is. So cross your fingers for me.

I had a rough bike ride home because my bum hurts. I'm just not used to riding my bike yet so I'll have to deal with the pain. I do know it's going to be a few days before I can ride again. But it rained on the way home, my bra strap broke, the chain fell off again and it was so humid I was dying. I somehow survived and had to take 2 hours to drive to my parents, which usually takes about 50 minutes, because it was raining so hard I could barely see. And when I got home I was told my car, which has been getting fixed this week, has to get an entire new ignition and it's going to cost quite a bit. Thankfully my mom is going to pay for it, since it had this problem before she gave it to me. She also paid for new brakes, yay. So while I wait I get to drive my mom's brand new car, so whatever. I'm not complaining.

But yeah, it's been a rough day. I get to see Hulk Hogan tomorrow though so I hope that makes up for such a bad day today. And hopefully next week I'll get to see the scale go down a little more. I have calorie counts for the past few days but I'll post them the next time I write. For now I'm just going to try to relax and end the day on a good note, and try not to be so discouraged about everything.

And thank you to my wonderful boyfriend who listened to me bitch incessantly about all of this all day long. I'm not sure I could have gotten through the day without him. Love youuuu.

-Monica