I guess Thursday is my new weigh-in day, because that's when I always seem to weigh myself. So I'm 194.4lbs. I suppose that's pretty good considering I had a cheat weekend. So since May 1st I'm down 5.6lbs. When I look at the number, I'm happy because I'm almost at the 190 mark. But at the same time I keep thinking "I've only lost 5.6lbs in 26 days" and it's not very encouraging looking at it that way. But I suppose the important thing is that the weight is coming off, no matter how slow. I'd like to see myself down another pound before the end of the month so that I'll have lost almost 7lbs this month. I'd be happy with 7lbs, since it'll be close to my goal of 8lbs. So, we'll see.
It takes less for me to get full now. I did some research and it takes 4 weeks of a reduced calorie diet to "shrink" your stomach (by that I just mean feeling fuller by eating less), so it makes sense that I'm feeling that way this week. But it's making it kind of hard because I already have enough trouble getting enough calories in. But I'm happy about that.
I had a good day. I spent about 2 hours in the kitchen cooking. I made a really good meal for dinner and then made some chicken salad to eat for lunch the next couple of days. It's DELICIOUS. Oh man... it's so good, haha. I'm excited to eat lunch tomorrow. But I'm trying to keep my carbs to 2 servings per day so when I have a chicken salad it means no carbs for dinner, so that kind of sucks. But I'll survive. I know it's better to eat those sorts of carbs earlier in the day anyway. I bought groceries today too and bought some healthy cereal and skim milk to have in the morning once in a while. I also bought weight watchers multi-grain bread, even though I really wanted to buy rye bread, because it had less calories, sugar and carbs. So I was good!
I also took some time and bought some skin products while I was shopping. I know this is technically a weight-loss blog but I'm trying to make myself healthier in other ways too, so I'll talk about that for a bit. I have a skin condition called keratosis pilaris, which is really common (most people don't even know they have it). Usually it's pretty under control, but lately I've noticed it acting up a little. You can't cure it, only treat it. So I did a lot of research on different ways to treat it. I bought a dry body brush the other day, so when that comes in I'm going to start body brushing. It's great for you anyway, so even if it doesn't work I'll keep up with it. It's supposed to be really good for circulation and I have problems with that so I'm excited to start. I also bought some exfoliating cream and lotion to use on my arms. And then I bought some moisturizer with aloe in it (HAPPY NICK?!) to use on my face after I spend time outside. So I'm going to start treating my skin right starting tonight. I have nice skin, minus the keratosis pilaris on my upper arms, so I should treat it right. Here's to healthy skin!
Today I've had about 1000 calories. Yesterday I had about 1200. I didn't work out yesterday because I was so sore from the previous day. But today I did the arms/shoulder p90x video and I'll definitely feel it tomorrow. I skipped the ab video because it kills me - I'll try doing it once my stomach is a bit flatter. It was already an hour's workout anyway so I burned a lot of calories. I was going to clean and burn some more calories but I ended up not having time. So I'll take a day this weekend and clean my room up. And hopefully I'll locate my measuring tape so I can finally take my measurements. And hopefully once I do that I'll see myself losing inches, even if the scale is going down slowly.
I think that's all for now. I'm just doing what I normally do and eating healthy. Since I won't have a cheat weekend this weekend, I'll be hoping to see a drop before the end of the month. I'll do my best to see that happen!
-Monica
P.S. Pictures were posted on facebook today of the wrestling event, and I am so upset over how big I actually look in them. Looking at pictures of myself now make me hate myself, and I hate feeling like that. It's so disheartening to look at them and almost makes me want to give up. They make me feel like I'm going to stay this way forever and be fat and disgusting. I hate it. Ugh. I'm trying my best to keep my head up and realize that I won't look like that forever, but it's hard when it's already going so slow and all I want is to look in the mirror and feel comfortable. I never know how to cheer myself up after stuff like this.
Three things:
ReplyDelete1. 5.6 pound loss since May 1st is pretty good! Thats more than 1 lbs loss per week, and thats awesome! Go Monie. Its the healthy way to do it. You still have another week in the month too!
2. You may not be happy with the way you look now.. give it another month and you will look damn fine.
3..... I don't remember what my third point was haha.
it's going to take wayyyy longer than a month before i look fine. if i'm lucky, by the end of the year i'll feel half-decent about myself (or whenever i can fit into the jeans i wore in europe.. they were my favourite haha and i think i was around 155ish then).... so yeah, by the end of the year >_>
ReplyDeleteand maybe i'll start getting more motivated when people start noticing i've lost weight, which usually happens around.. 15-20lbs. so blah. idkkkk.
I think the times on here are wrong.. it was probably closer to 8am. I had to work in the morning haha.
ReplyDeleteI think you will start to notice little differences around the 10-15lb mark.. and after that is when others will notice. I think others will start to take notice within a month or two.